A Wave of Grief

When a wave of grief washes over you from out of the blue, it can catch you off guard. Suddenly you are vulnerable to the world around you, and the feeling grows stronger as it moves through the body.

This week I experienced a huge wave of grief that came out of nowhere. A strong feeling of sadness started to consume my whole being. It was at the most inconvenient time, yet it was actually timed to perfection.

I was selling a watch that belonged to my dad. I'd had it for a while and never really gave it much thought. But there was an agreement that it had to be sold.

Off I went and all was fine. As soon as the moment came to hand over the watch, I realised I was saying goodbye again. And that was suddenly the hardest thing to do.

I am used to this now and I honour it when it rises. There is no shame, no guilt, no judgement. What next? Acknowledge, allow, let go.

I welcomed the emotion and, with clear intention and deep breaths, I channelled the energy down to my feet, out into Mother Earth, and I grounded. All of which took place with a barrage of memories flooding my mind, whilst finishing the interaction with the gentleman helping me.

Once finished, I left with urgency. When I looked up, there she was, a beautiful tree, calling out in the rain. I went over and asked her to support me in moving through the rest of the wave. It was a beautiful exchange and I was deeply grateful.

It was just enough to finish my errands and drive home. Not wanting to let any emotions get stuck within, I allowed the last few tears to come, until peace took their place.

Another small part of me healed, so I can keep my heart open.

With love

Emma x